So this week I was skirting round the blogosphere, as you do, and I read this post on MumsRock about changing career paths. I skimmed it yesterday, and then today was drawn to return because something’s nagging at me and I don’t know what. I’ve just got to the point in time where all my children are in school full time and I’ve pulled up the drawbridge on my uterus so this is it now – my career is the focus. Suddenly I have all the time that I never had before. I no longer have to work into the night or juggle activities at the weekends to fit things in, and…. I’m at a bit of a loss.
I’m used to working under pressure, it inspires me, forces me to grasp ideas and make them work. I’ve enjoyed the freelance life for the last 8 years, fitting it around my family, ensuring that everyone gets the bits of me I need. But what now?
I’m in my home office and I’m pondering where I go from here. Do I continue in the same vein, or consider ‘going back to work’, as in for someone else or would that just be too weird?
I’m at a crossroads. There are undoubtedly aspects of communal working that I miss – the banter, the creative environment, having other people around to bounce ideas off, but I’ve also got very used to having my own space, to working ungodly hours and knowing that if I suddenly have a killer idea at 2am I can slip on my dressing gown and fire up the mac.
Is this normal? Am I turning into a sterotype? And where do I go from here?